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Tuesday, June 19, 2007
8:48 AM

Chapter Three : The Finale

The end is near , but the dreams have never stop . I met this girl named Girl in my dreams . It turns out that I survived the car crash and I broke up with She to let Her and Him be together . Not long later i met Girl at a computer game store . Not every girl you meet likes computer games . We chatted and found a lot in common , we went down to the Starbucks and had a drink . We exchanged numbers and from then on we text message each other everyday , its almost as if i am using Girl as a substitute for She , am i right? Trying to forget She , I asked Girl to be my girlfriend and she gladly accepted my request . We went on dates a couple of times , from holding hands to hugging , from hugging to light kisses . Then on one date Girl tried to kiss me on my lips , for some reason I saw the dream about She and He again , I didn't want to get hurt anymore so i left Girl there . Puzzled at why I choose to let go of a relationship that seems to be going on a smooth track , I didn't want her to know why I left her . Girl is a very good girl , I didn't want to hurt her . Dreams that triggers tear are very very hurtful .

Those who commit suicides will go to hell .

doodled
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Sunday, June 10, 2007
9:56 PM

Chapter Two : The Amendments

Maybe its time i treat She better , She deserve the best and I should be giving her the best . Its time i started saving up for her . Its time she starts to enjoy the moment we are having together . I will tell God in his face that I will take good care of her forever , have faith in Me .

Its time I GREW UP

doodled
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Saturday, June 09, 2007
4:54 AM

Chapter One : Introduction

I had a dream last night , to be more specific it was a nightmare . I saw She in arms of HE . Here was what happened . He called me and said that to go over to His place as He has something important to ask me . I agreed . I put on my sneakers and went out of my house thinking what He is going to ask me . Me and He are very good friends , being so He gave me his house keys just in case anything happens He too has my house keys . I trusted him . I open the door with the keys He gave me , what i saw tore me apart . I saw Her in the arms of He . They were hugging and kissing , He was half naked and so was She . They were behaving like lovers . She saw me at the door , She tore herself off the arms of He and ran towards me . I broke down and cry . She said '' Joseph , what you are seeing is not what it is . Really ! '' I couldn't bring myself to talk to She . What i saw and what She told me are two complete different things . Then i saw He with a grin on his face . Then it hit me , my best friend wanted She to be with him after all and not with Me . I ran out of the house , leaving those two in the house still undress . As I was crossing the road , I was knocked down by a car . I died on the spot . The next thing i knew I was in front of God . I ask God '' God why did She turn on my ? Why did He turn on me ? '' God told me " Joseph , you have failed in the task of taking care of She , I have given your job to He . '' I asked God why . He showed me Fourteen things which I have failed . Should i tell She what i saw ? I woke up crying , for the next two hours i tried to stop the tears and think through why i failed . It hit me . After I turned 14 I was never there for her . He was always for her when She needed someone to care for her . They were on the same page for the whole year and me in a totally different entity . I was foolish to have not been there for her and due to my foolishness I lost her to someone who i trusted . I stop the tears and went back to bed from then I didn't know how to face She the same way I use to . I did wrong... I have failed . Please do not mistake this post as a wet dream . Wet dreams do not make people cry .

doodled
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